I’m sitting in the back of a 757 returning home from spending a week in Kauai with some amazing people. As I’m in my seat on the first leg of my flight home I teared up and cried out of an overwhelming sense of gratefulness for the time I spent on the garden island. I’m not exactly sure where this emotion is coming from, but I haven’t felt this in a long time if ever. So many people have expressed their belief in me over the course of this past week. As they did I was uncomfortable with it at first. I think I’m still uncomfortable with it. I’ve not had people express this to me in a very long time. I‘m crying again and I don’t care who sees me. Although most people on the plane are asleep.
It’s midnight in Kauai. I’ve got about two more hours till we land in LA. I hear Switchfoot “This is Your Life” playing in my head. Am I who I want to be? Am I doing what I want to do? Am I living the life I want to live?
Someone asked me to pretend I knew what was holding me back. Fear of the opinion of others? Fear of failure? Fear of success? Can I handle success? Maybe I can’t handle the truth (Jack Nicholson).
Crying again. This is getting ridiculous.
Watching the movie “Eddie the Eagle” on the flight. Cried again. Trying to keep from sobbing out loud.
I love everyone I meet this week. I love my team. I love my family. I love my wife and I promise to work on being the man she thought she married.