I was a pleaser for many years.
It seemed that I fell into the trap of “going along to get along”. Maybe not fell asleep much as I was lazy and it was the easiest path to take. The longer I stayed in the land of complacent compromise the worse I felt and deeper into depression I found myself.
Through a set of circumstances I won’t get into here, I was awakened to my true self. The guy I used to be when I got married that attracted my wife was alive again. I felt like I was reborn with a world of possibilities before me. Life was exciting for the first time in many years. I tried sharing this new awakening with my wife of 29 yrs but she was resistant to my words and actions. I wanted desperately for her to experience what I had, the self discovery that had gripped my being and wouldn’t let go. She wouldn’t have anything to do with it. So I determined I would continue on this path no matter her decision. I had seen to much. I had experienced the power of a life of purpose that was bringing me to a place I never thought possible before.
She eventually determined she could not change. I knew I could not stay the same. So on December 21, 2016 she packed up her belongings and left. She has refused to speak to me since except through her attorneys. On Sept 11, 2017 our divorce was final.
This has been the most difficult year of my life. It has also been one of the best years of my life. I’m alive again. I can choose how the final chapters of my life will end. And I choose to write one hell of an ending.
Greg Boek
54 yrs young (feeling like 34!)